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When we realize a pattern about ourselves, that we have not previously been aware of, we have two choices. We can choose to support that belief pattern and structure, or we can choose to change. Patterns get ingrained in our minds not only on an emotional level, but on a downright physical level also. Our brains form interconnected pathways of neurons and dendrites that precipitate our actions. I like to think of them as a subway line or track with stops. We get on at station (emotion) A and if we don’t pay close attention, all of a sudden we end up at station (emotion) Z and we don’t even realize it. With emotions and patterns, I think that the longer we have been “doing” them, the harder it can be to chose to get off at stop B (or C or Q) voluntarily. We turn into auto-pilot mode and then become disappointed, confused, hurt and upset when we miss the signs that could have helped us to get out earlier.

I recently have realized that a very traumatic past experience has been influencing my interpersonal relationships. This connection has enabled me to in an essence be “reborn” from the negative and hurtful pattern that I have been repeating for the past 18 years of my life. A pattern that has caused grief, loss, pain and suffering to those around me as well as to myself. Something that I previously felt lost at an attempt to explain, much less understand, is now very identifiable for me. I am excited for the future. A future that will be rich with life, love and happiness.